Fedmyster's Pokimane Document Leak

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To: Imane (old phone) Details To: Imane (old phone) Details it's a delicate and gossip ridden scene ya why???? feel me Edc is 9pm - 6am Yeah outside the house I always try to be discrete/private monkas About that i'm sorry but l'mma be ở real soon but Hahaha ik hun Even to our friends I could pass out It's even more confusing to them In like 5 seconds idk how to manage that Rn or how i feel about that Zzzz Yeah l'm not too sure how to handle all of Gnite :)) that. Depends on how private you wanna be. i'm here why is romance so complicated sigh u tired? boys suck Idk how much you wanna talk about this stuff What's so complicated? :0 oh sorry hun :000 Didnt seeee errythang but :/ if you'd like me give you space, I can do that. Yea I wanna be v private until we make the jump then idgaf But I feel like that's not decided soooo things get awkward sometimes To give you * lol ur fine Yeah ik what you mean only thing i worry about with u is seeming too couple-y in front of others before we actually are Gonna be honest, And maybe I don't see the whole picture it's a delicate and gossip ridden scene ya The whole will situation makes me monkas hard feel me Yeah outside the house I always try to be discretelnrivate To: Imane (old phone) Details I do feel like I need to Understand the boy scene a lil bit more before being ready to commit maybe date around or something Idk chillin for now i do think u are wonderfullll tho but u know how i feel about it all You still wanna date around? Just so I understand correctly I feel like I should Damn, alright. Don't you think you should too? as much as i enjoy being with you and as comforting as it is seems a lil rushed after our pasts maybe u've gotten to date around more than me w shelby and whoever else but for me idk and again, taking that step with you is a big big deal with work and living sitch it's really hard for me to Figure out what the right move is but idk we can sit on it some more I'm too weak for this convo right now :(( got the week to figure it out lol weak???? Idk, I care about you a LOT. So yeah this hurts to hear. I'm not interested in anyone else. I feel like at home with you. :(0

To: Imane (old phone) Details To: Imane (old phone) Details O 00:00 | -00:12 4) waiting! ^ Hana playing VR horror game right now Hey I'm ready LMAAAAO00O she seems drunk YAY hahahahah she said she was terrified YAY Heading home YOU WON oki dokelee i don't I wonder if i can call u and watch at the Even wanna talk to u same time... I'm fomoing too hard I think so Just get on WiFi Honestly l'd give up a lot to be back there with you rn fed.. q-quick question.. That's just me tho ^^ This is cool, but not anything crazy. Yes What's up? :) <3 foki joast squads rn without fed :( ru calling me baby in front of others anyways don't say that!! U know u wanna No be there and u'll have fun ^^ i'm surprised ur calling me baby at all!!!! :;(wish I could join Sorry if it bothers you Yeah I wanna be here, but I'm just being honest when I say if I had to choose between going to edc vs cuddling with you ... that's my fav pet name and it is boyfriend restricted it's cute but easiest decision of my life Just feels .. right. Watching pt 1 i worry if we be actin too gay waiting!! ^_ Imao ur cute To: Imane (old phone) Details Imao ur cute -; ssoorrry I'll stop it's ok just Mmmmmm ur only allowed like 2 a week Like an allowance hahahahahahahah I'm going to go into a fat debt. i'm lucky to have you someone who accepts me as a whole All of you Every little bit :))) T.T I'm gonna try and stay up till 4 Idk how possible this will be. I'm already so tired e why???? Edc is 9pm - 6am monkas i'm sorry but l'mma be a real soon

$To: Imane (old phone) 4/19/18, 1:38 PM Details thanks for always taking care of me btw Yeah e apparently he was gonna irl and chill at McDonald's overnight then get on his flight 4/19/18, 2:54 PM Respond He's too troll. I'm here And I always will ^^ We made it :))) What time is your flightV in 25 mins ^ Hope your flight is going well! Miss you Sorry if I'm ever super extra--just rlly love making you feel good/happy 6 4/15/18, 7:11 PM phone died. lol. On my laptop T_T why do u like that 4/13/18, 1:57 PM. awwwww honeybun I just do. You're often stressing about things and even if you aren't, love helping in anyway I can bc ik it puts less weight on you it just feels right. ^^ I'll miss you too feddy! I'll be back soon dw :) To: Imane (old phone) Details thanks fed 4/12/18, 11:42 PM i'm lucky to have you in my life Honey wants to sleep over. That coo with you? e hope I can help you as well we're taking off, ttyl ^\^ sorry but not tn >_< tmrw's a big dayyyy A A* as much as i wanna sleepover w both honeys O Have a nice flight okay Don't sleep on some ransoms shoulder Waaaaah. o Randoms* Drink water G 4/8/18, 8:58 AM To: Imane (old phone) Details 4/13/18, 9:33 AM fed You have your passport? Yes ya :) fed do u miss me already ohohoohohoh Yes Yesssssssss :(((( u cute no u 5/4/18, 10:57 AM$

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Overview

Fedmyster's Pokimane Document Leak refers to a leaked document made by streamer Fedmyster in which he claimed that fellow streamer Pokimane manipulated him and fabricated narrative against him in June 2020, when Fedmyster was removed from the content creator collective OfflineTV. The document contained screenshots of texts between the streamers and became a viral subject of discussions online, with Pokimane later addressing the document on a stream.

Background

June 2020 Events

On June 27th, 2020, member of OfflineTV content creator collective and streamer LilyPichu made Twitter^[1] and Twitlonger^[2] posts in which she made sexual harassment allegations against former Offline TV manager Chris Chan (both posts later deleted). On the same day, OfflineTV house manager and streamer Yvonne "Yvonnie" Ng made allegations^[3]^[4] against fellow OfflineTV streamer Federico Michael "Fedmyster" Gaytan, also known as "Fed," accusing him of sexual harassment against her, LilyPichu and several other female members of the collective (post shown below). On the same day, Fedmyster was removed from Offline TV.^[5]

my truth I wanna start this off by saying, Fed was the first friend I felt like I made at OfflineTV. He was very welcoming and I spent the most time with him out of everyone. We got along really well and quickly became really really good friends. We would go on late night food runs, and watched movies together in my room since I had a TV. He fell asleep frequently there and it became a pretty normal thing. We always stayed on our sides of the bed, and nothing ever really happened.until it did. I was lying in bed with all the lights off. The door opened and Fed came in, drunk from going out that night. He crawled into my bed and laid there for a bit. Then he grabbed my hand and held it.and I didn't move at all cause I was shocked. He then brushed my hand against his cheek, and kissed it after. I was still in a state of shock, trying to process what's happening, because this guy is supposed to be my friend. He also knew I had a boyfriend at the time. Next, he stuck his hand inside my sleeve, and touched my side next to my chest. And although it wasn't exactly my chest, it was close enough to make me feel extremely uncomfortable, and feel like that was not a place where a friend should be touching me. I still couldn't move at this point, and in my head I was just begging for him to not go any further, praying he would stop there. He did, retracted his hand, and made it seem like he was sleeping. 10 minutes later he 'woke up' and said "whoa how'd I get here." I asked, "do you remember anything?" and he said no and left my room. The next day I went up to his room and asked if he remembered what happened last night. He said no. I told myself that if he forgot, then maybe he didn't know what he was doing because he was drunk, and I didn't wanna bring it up because I didn't wanna make it weird between us. A few weeks later, I was lying in bed again, and he came in drunk, again. He laid down next to me and told me he was sorry for what happened last time, and that he overstepped boundaries. So then I thought to myself, did he remember this whole time, and lied about it.?I didn't say anything, and 10 minutes later - he did it AGAIN - minus the t-shirt part. Again, I'm scared to say anything and he fell asleep next to me. The next day he also acted like nothing ever happened - and I asked him at some point if he remembered anything, and he said no - again. I kept this secret to myself for a very very long time. The only people I could tell were my boyfriend at the time and a close friend of mine, and out of respect for me they didn't tell anyone. I felt like if I told anyone at OTV, the world would come crashing down, and that OTV would die/cease to exist, so I never did. I minimized it A LOT, and carried on throughout my days as usual, but small things in me started changing without me realizing it. I started avoiding Fed more - I went from hanging out with him all the time to almost never. I tunneled into League because it felt easy to be 'busy' in a game so he couldn't talk to me or bother me. It became the easiest way to avoid him - being addicted to a game.

One day I told him what happened between us, and he said he didn't remember/know it happened. He proceeded to say he was a horrible person, and I felt bad and started comforting him. I will always remember that one of the first things he asked me after he found out was: "did you tell anyone?" and proceeded to panic when he felt like people could know. I also told him that my boyfriend at the time, Sean, doesn't blame him and knows he isn't a bad person deep down, in which he responded "yeah it's in his best interest not to" ???? (which it wasn't by the way - Sean is just a super nice guy who tried to be understanding and give him the benefit of the doubt). He said all these things but never once did he apologize to me after learning about the situation that he 'forgot.' Thinking back, his thought process was super messed up, because he was more worried about people finding out, than how he hurt me. I minimized it so so so much, that I would forget at times it even happened in the first place. It was weird cause there were certain times where he could trigger me, but other times seeing him was fine. It triggered me when he'd knock on my door, barely waiting, and despite no response he'd just come in. I remember I tried locking my door a few times and he gave me a hard time for doing so - "why the f--- is your door locked." Multiple times where he'd come in at night without me saying he could - everyone else in the house always knocks and waits for a response, but not him. It also triggered me whenever he'd walk into my room, jump into my bed and start going on his phone, but again I minimized, minimized, minimized, and honestly felt really bad for feeling that way towards him. I kept this all to myself mostly because I didn't want to ruin the peace, I wanted to avoid the situation, and I thought he would change after what happened with me. He didn't. He proceeded to overstep boundaries with other girls in our friend group, and each girl kept it to themselves cause they would just think 'oh it's just fed' or 'he was just lonely/drunk.' He even did it to Lily (she gave me permission to share this.) When she was going through her hard breakup with Albert, Fed also walked into her room while she was drunk. She was laying down and he asked if she wanted a massage. She said sure, and he started off massaging her leg, and then up her thighs. A week or so later, he was drunk and laid down next to her, and told her he liked her. She then felt uncomfortable with everything, and he asked her to not tell anyone what happened. Again thinking back, it felt like he tried to take advantage of Lily when she was in a really vulnerable state. One night the girls were hanging out together, and when the topic of Fed came up, we realized we all had our stories about him. Whether it was him lying about certain situations to be in his favor, or lying to us about girls leading him on when he was the one who got rejected, or manipulating us to have certain ideas of people/situations. Poki especially suffered a lot from this, and l'll let her explain if she chooses to do so.

One night the girls were hanging out together, and when the topic of Fed came up, we realized we all had our stories about him. Whether it was him lying about certain situations to be in his favor, or lying to us about girls leading him on when he was the one who got rejected, or manipulating us to have certain ideas of people/situations. Poki especially suffered a lot from this, and l'll let her explain if she chooses to do so. The stories shared were mainly of Fed overstepping boundaries, being overly touchy, in which we all thought were just Fed things.' We thought it was fine because we told ourselves that's just how he is.'As we shared each of our stories, we realized - it was not fine. When all the sexual harassment/abuse stories started coming out on twitter, my coping mechanism just broke. I couldn't minimize it anymore, and I suddenly felt everything that happened crashing down on me all at once. I couldn't ignore it any longer, and realized what happened was not okay. It couldn't be swept under the rug. I didn't want to see him, talk to him, or work with him. The pattern of problematic behavior led us to decide that we needed to have an intervention with him to get him to realize he needs to change for the better. So we all sat down together as a group, and everyone started sharing with Fed how he once hurt them. It was extremely emotional with a lot of crying, and at the end of it he seemed very apologetic and understood what he had done wrong. This was the first time he apologized to me about everything, and it did feel really nice to hear. I genuinely felt super happy that it seemed like Fed was very accepting of everything and willing to be better. I wasn't planning on releasing any statement from my end, but unfortunately his behavior since then made me feel like he wasn't really sorry. His actions and words showed he was still avoiding responsibility, that his priority was still himself and his career, versus being a better person and resolving the hurt he caused us. My intention for this statement is not to destroy him, but to warn other girls about his behavior, and how he pushes boundaries using alcohol as an excuse for his actions. He needs to be held accountable for his actions, learn from his mistakes, and not avoid them like how he was trying to again this time around. I don't think Fed is a bad person, but we all made excuses for his behavior for a long time now because we truly loved him as a friend. Even despite all this, ultimately what I'd want in the end would be to see him taking steps towards getting help, and striving to be a better person. A few things I would like people to keep in mind: - everyone in OTV helped me IMMENSELY throughout all this, they went through great measures to make sure I was okay and that I would be okay in the future as well. - When they learned of this they NEVER asked me to be silent, in fact they tried their best to stand up for me and speak for me when I didn't know how to approach this. They made me feel comfortable and empowered to speak my truth, because I would've felt too scared otherwise. - It may not be possible, but I would like it if people could refrain from s------- on OTV/negative comments. I would appreciate that a lot because everyone there helped me the most throughout this entire thing. It would really hurt to read awful comments towards the people I tried so hard to protect. - Lastly, please remember that FED IS HUMAN, and refrain from extremely hurtful comments that I know he's going to receive. Words can have a very scary impact, and again I want to emphasize that my intention with this statement is not to destroy him. I just felt a strong need to speak my truth and put a warning out there to other women until he does get better. I don't believe he's a bad person deep down, he is someone that even to this day I can't help but care about, and things would honestly be a lot easier if I didn't.

On the same day, Fedmyster posted a series of tweets^[6] admitting to his actions and calling himself "flawed" (tweets shown below).

@Fedmyster · Jun 27 I want to start off this statement by apologizing for my absence the past few days. Earlier this week, some of my friends sat me down and expressed that I had on several occasions made them feel uncomfortable or uneasy. FED 000 2.1K 27 1K 25.8K FED 000 @Fedmyster Replying to @Fedmyster In light of recent events, this pained me greatly as it was not and has never been my intention to hurt those closest to me. I fully understand the importance of having their voices heard, and I believe I should take a step back, give them space and listen to their story. 11:14 PM · Jun 27, 2020 · Twitter Web App

FED @Fedmyster · Jun 27 000 I've made it a point this year to be better, and as I often mention I'm trying to take more responsibility in my life. I owe it to both my friends and everyone who supports me to own up to my actions, and that starts by listening to those I've hurt. 94 27 170 13.8K FED 000 @Fedmyster Replying to @Fedmyster I want to make it clear that my intentions were never to act maliciously or predatorily. I am flawed, I have issues that impede my friendships, issues with myself, but I am not a predator and I never wanted this to happen. Their stories: Stories - Pastebin.com Pastebin.com is the number one paste tool since 2002. Pastebin is a website where you can store text online for a set period o... S pastebin.com 11:14 PM · Jun 27, 2020 · Twitter Web App

In the following days, multiple media outlets reported on allegations against Fedmyster and his removal from OfflineTV, including reports by CNN^[7] and Dexerto.^[8]

During her June 28th, 2020, stream, OfflineTV member Pokimane^[9] made allegations about Fed's manipulative behavior towards her, which ultimately led to Pokimane making a decision to depart from the OfflineTV mansion.

He would lie a lot. I had a lot of trust issues with him over the years, and we would fight a lot about things. If he was in the wrong, he would ignore my existence in the house. He would literally refuse to acknowledge me.

November 2020 Events

On November 25th, an unknown source leaked a 25-page document^[10] written by Fedmyster in which he accused OfflineTV streamer Pokimane of shaping the narrative against him following the June 2020 events. The document contained multiple screenshots of text exchanges between Fedmyster and Pokimane, with the texts appearing as if Pokimane often flirted with Fedmyster (screenshots shown below). In the document, Fedmyster stated that he is not contradicting LilyPichy's and Yvonne's stories, but instead is "addressing the individuals that I believe are twisting the truth for their own benefit." The link to the document was spread on Discord and 4chan.^[11]^[12]

Developments

Later on November 25th, Fedmyster tweeted^[13]^[14] that the document was indeed created by him several months ago, but he did not intend for it to go public. He clarified that the document was leaked by a person that Fedmyster asked for advice and support following the June 2020 events. Later on the same day, streamer Mizkif^[18] revealed that the document was leaked from his Google account after an unknown person gained access to it.

Following the leak, streamer Destiny reviewed the leaked document, commenting on it during his stream. Multiple clips from the stream were subsequently reposted to /r/LivestreamFail^[15] subreddit; for example, a clip^[16] of Destiny reacting to some of the texts between Pokimane and Fedmyster gained over 11,400 upvotes on Reddit and 210,200 views on Twitch (shown below).

Also on November 25th, Pokimane held a two-hour stream^[17] in which she addressed the leaked document (extract shown below).

[…] Ultimately, I think it's fair to say there is my truth, there is his truth, and the actual truth is probably somewhere in between.

Online Reactions

On November 25th, the controversy became a major subject of discussions in /r/LivestreamFail subreddit and on Twitter, with multiple clips from Destiny's^[19] and Pokimane's^[20] broadcasts being posted.